BTS‘ V commemorated the launch of his launching solo cd, Layover — which got here Sept. 8 — with a Monday (Sept. 11) look on Suga‘s Suchwita alcohol consumption program. While both paid attention to numerous tracks from the cd, the discussion transformed severe when V reviewed a bumpy ride in the team that happened throughout 2018.
“When I think of Taehyung, the year 2018 comes to mind so much, during our ‘Fake love’ promotions,” Suga claimed, to which V responded, “It was the toughest time in my life.”
A clip from BTS’ honor approval at the 2018 MOTHER Awards speech played in an apart, which saw V informing the target market, “Even if I die and come back alive, what doesn’t change is that ARMY is such a precious gift to me.”
Suga described that after the participants saw just how tired V was, it led the team to question just how exhausted they additionally were. V’s source of stress and anxiety, nevertheless, originated from really feeling troubled concerning his efficiency capacities contrasted to his team participants’.
“I started to compare myself to others. ‘Because my pace is slower than the members and my thoughts are a bit different … is that why I’m more burned out?’ I thought this a lot,” V described. “Whenever I looked at our members when we perform, [I thought,] ‘The members are so perfect and they enjoy the stage. But why am I the only one like this?’ So relatively, my burnout was severe.”
Despite acquiring worldwide interest and also obtaining welcomed to execute at the Billboard Music Awards and also the American Music Awards for the very first time in 2018, the distinctions were insufficient for the team to really feel excellent concerning their absence of remainder, and also according to V, his fatigue capped as BTS planned for the launch of “Fake Love.”
“I was so exhausted that I asked, ‘Since tomorrow we only have dance practice, would it be OK if we took a day off?’ But we were preparing for our comeback and it was an important dance practice, so we couldn’t rest. … All this negativity piled up inside me,” he remembered. “I didn’t think I could do anything in that state, so I kept thinking of ways I could rest, but I couldn’t think of anything, so I even thought I should get hurt [‘If I get hurt, would I be able to rest?’]. I thought I should get hurt, but now I want to change that me of the past.”
Though Suga kept in mind that 2018 seemed like a “life and death situation” for BTS, military can relax very easy recognizing those days lag the team. “They’re gone now!” V ensured Suga.
Watch V’s episode of Suchwita over.
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