Note: This article accommodates references to home violence, assault, and rape that some readers could discover disturbing.
Earlier this week, Pitchfork published excerpts from a secretly recorded tape of the late Florida rapper XXXTentacion (born Jahseh Onfroy), throughout which he confessed to a number of crimes, together with abusing his ex-girlfriend and stabbing a number of individuals. Today, a extra detailed transcript of all the 27-minute recording is being printed for the primary time.
According to the Miami-Dade County state legal professional’s workplace, the tape was recorded by an acquaintance of the rapper across the time of XXXTentacion’s arrest in October 2016 on fees of aggravated battery of a pregnant lady, home battery by strangulation, false imprisonment, and witness tampering. In the recording, XXXTentacion states that he believed his ex-girlfriend cheated on him whereas he was in jail in the course of the summer season of 2016 on fees of armed dwelling theft and aggravated battery with a firearm.
In a court deposition carried out in January 2017, the ex-girlfriend shared harrowing particulars of her expertise with XXXTentacion, which included a number of cases of violent assault, one in every of which was reportedly triggered after she hummed the verse from a featured artist on one in every of XXXTentacion’s songs. At one level, she mentioned he threatened to kill her unborn little one. The ex-girlfriend acknowledged that in early October 2016, XXXTentacion brutally beat her till one in every of her eyes swelled shut and started to leak blood. He was arrested on battery and false imprisonment fees on October 8, 2016.
XXXTentacion was awaiting trial when he was shot and killed in June 2018 on the age of 20. After his dying, all prison circumstances towards him had been closed. Pitchfork has reached out to representatives and attorneys for XXXTentacion for additional remark.
The transcript has been edited for readability, and names and a few particulars have been redacted to guard the identities of third events. The recording accommodates a number of voices: XXXTentacion, an unnamed man, and a minimum of two unnamed ladies. It is unclear what the opposite peoples’ relationships to XXXTentacion had been; it’s also unclear how many individuals had been within the room in the course of the recording.
XXXTentacion: Look how briskly I’ll fuck that up ’trigger I couldn’t management my fucking anger. [laughs] You really feel me? I disgust myself. Every day I’ll haven’t any pleasure trying within the mirror. I disgust myself. And you recognize what, it’s humorous, I find it irresistible.
Man: Damn.
XXXTentacion: I like that I disgust myself. I eat my negativity each single day. And you recognize what comes up extra? More negativity. And irrespective of the place I am going or the place I seek for any kind of reassurance, one thing’s gonna fuck me over, bruh.
Woman 1: So the place’s your positivity?
XXXTentacion: There is none.
Woman 1: Why?
XXXTentacion: It’s not me.
Woman 1: Why?!
XXXTentacion: That’s my positivity. [The ex-girlfriend] bought positivity.
Woman 1: So what’s up?
XXXTentacion: She doing the mistaken factor although. So, let me ask you a query, proper? You’re in jail. Your homeboy that you simply handle, proper? He fucked your girlfriend. Right? He fucked your girlfriend, gave her plenty of medicine, and fuck her, and fuck her, proper? You come dwelling. First [unintelligible] you took care of her for like three, 4 months. Take care of her for some time. She ain’t go no person to handle her. Clothes. Shoes. A home to remain in. A four-bedroom house. You really feel me? Kittens. All varieties of loopy shit, you are feeling me, dropping bands. Right? You get out. The individuals you handle. You get out. The day you get out, you see her, proper? She kiss you in your lips, you are feeling me, really feel up on you da da da. “I love you, I would never do anything to hurt you,” da da da. You go, you go to the, you go to the home. And your canine. Before she let you know. Before she let you know. Before he instructed her to let you know. Make certain you inform me the reality and I’ll forgive you. You inform her to let you know. You go dwelling. Y’all fantastic, y’all smokin, y’all chillin’, da da da. You order pizza, you ensuring all people straight. [unintelligible] You on the cellphone. Your canine let you know, your canine let you know that [unintelligible] nigga fucked your bitch. [laughs] Telling you he fucked your bitch. [redacted] I’ll kill this bitch if she play with me. That’s the true deal. You really feel me. On some shit like that. And I feel any man would bruh. Any man would bruh.
Man: I really feel you however rattling, bro.
XXXTentacion: Yeah bro. Yeah bro. [unintelligible crosstalk]
Man: It’s no use worrying about this stuff man. [unintelligible crosstalk]
XXXTentacion: No, I do know it’s not, bruh. [unintelligible crosstalk]
Man: I perceive the place you’re coming from… [unintelligible]
XXXTentacion: Yeah. You come dwelling. Your canine robbing you. The niggas you took care of since they met you. And gave all people face. Nobody dropped no cash in your commissary. The solely individual that appeared out for you was your mother. The solely folks that reply was actually her, my mother, and my principally brother [redacted]. And even then, she got here to visitation, canine. Visitations telling me I may belief her, proper? The first time it occurred, I don’t imply to place your corporation on the market, however I’m doing it to you because you prefer to put your corporation on the market, you prefer to say shit about me. [redacted] She got here to my visitation and let me know, and I forgave her, you are feeling me. I needed to scare it out of her. I needed to sit there and scare it out of her. That’s why I’m tellin’ y’all brother. Let me do my factor, you are feeling me. I understand how to get the reality out of her.
So. I’m in my [unintelligible]. All the previous heads, you recognize the cool ones been by means of this a thousand instances. “Your bitch gone fucked somebody, fam, you gotta get over it. You need to forgive her and move on once you get the truth.” Once you get the reality, you are feeling me? But for those who can’t get the reality [unintelligible] simply overlook that shit. “It’s gonna happen,” they tellin’ me. I’m like, “Nah, not her bruh, she love me, she care about me, she know better, I’ma kill her, da da da, da.” You really feel me? They was like, “What you gonna kill her for? You probably the type of nigga that kill your bitch and then kill yourself, ain’t it?” And I used to be like, “Yeah.” They was like, “That’s weak. You weak if you do that. You weak. A real man gonna forgive her, and then move on.” Once you get the reality, proper?
So. I don’t prefer to be referred to as weak. I don’t prefer to be referred to as pussy. So you recognize what I did? I bought out anticipating this stuff. ’Cause you recognize what degree of frequency my thoughts is on. I bought out as a result of I knew what was going to occur. [redacted] So she did that to me, proper? You know what I did? I forgave her. Pat on the again. Don’t misinform me. You really feel me? She wasn’t with me on the time so I’ll give her that. She wasn’t with me. You really feel me? But you simply picturing. [redacted] And I’ve seen it executed, don’t get me mistaken. And I fucked one other nigga bitch whereas he was in jail. This bitch [redacted], I don’t know if you recognize her. [redacted]. She used to hang around with [redacted], I fucked that shit [unintelligible crosstalk]. I ran by means of that shit after which I beat up [redacted]. I beat up her boyfriend.
Woman 1: I used to this point [redacted].
XXXTentacion: I beat him up. I beat that nigga up. Fuck that soft-ass nigga.
Woman 1: You’re humorous.
XXXTentacion: I beat that smooth nigga up. I slapped him. I palm-slapped him. [unintelligible crosstalk]
So [the ex-girlfriend] did that to me, proper? But as a result of [redacted] I used to be in, locked up, I’m like, “All right, OK, it’s cool.” But then, certain sufficient, I get out. [laughs] [redacted] So you recognize what I do, initially? ’Cause I used to fuck her up bruh. I used to fuck her up, bruh. You know what I did? I didn’t contact her. I didn’t contact her. I forgive her. I forgive her. I forgive her [unintelligible]. I simply needed the reality. And bits and items saved popping out from any individual else that I’ve by no means heard, proper? [A cellphone rings on vibrate.] Bits and items, bits and items, bits and items. So I’ma say this.
Oh right here go this different bitch. Hello? [particular person on cellphone talks; unintelligible] Twenty minutes away? All proper. Just textual content me if you’re right here.
Woman 1: Where are you going? Where the fuck you going?
XXXTentacion: That was simply [redacted]. She about to smoke me up. Y’all need some smoke? What’s his title and them speculated to nonetheless come, [redacted] supposed to return. But yeah that bitch was speculated to smoke me up.
But yeah. She did that to me. And bruh. Shit hold comin’ out bruh. And then she’ll drop me bits and particulars, proper? And then she inform me she don’t know what occurred. [redacted] Remember how she instructed you that she didn’t keep in mind? When I used to be in that room, she says, I used to be like, “Tell me the truth bruh and I’ll let it go. Tell me the truth. Just tell me truth.” [redacted]
And then I requested her one other query simply to catch her in her lie. Just to catch her and ensure I do know she lyin’. ’Cause now I do know she mendacity about sure components. And I’ma get it out of her. I’m not gonna hit her. But then I requested her, I used to be like, “Did [redacted] sleep in that mattress with you?” You know what she mentioned earlier than? “No.” [laughs] “No.” [redacted] slept within the mattress together with her. Now, I’m gonna let you know how I pieced collectively your lie. I’ma let you know in a second. I ain’t gonna hit you. I simply need the reality. I need the reality so I can transfer on with my life.
Yeah, I pieced collectively one in every of her lies, however yeah, she slept within the mattress with that nigga. She mentioned they didn’t, however you recognize this bitch mendacity. [laughs] You know this bitch mendacity. You know this bitch is mendacity. I’ma let you know every part. I’ma let you know each element and the way I lastly bought to piece this shit collectively. But [redacted], for those who love or respect me, I simply need the reality out of this woman, then she will be able to depart.
Woman 1: I can’t give y’all personal time. This right here. She gotta communicate proper now, ’trigger that’s what we’re doing. Like, I’m sorry. We’re already like— [unintelligible crosstalk]
XXXTentacion: Hell nah. [laughs]
Woman 1: Like, I really feel you.
XXXTentacion: [unintelligible]
Woman 1: Bro, like, I don’t know what you wanna do. Because I don’t even know you want that. Real shit. I wouldn’t disrespect you both. Out of respect not just for myself [unintelligible] however as a result of I wouldn’t do this to anyone. [unintelligible]. You’re a lady so…
Unidentified Woman: What are you asking me?
Woman 1: I’m saying, like, what y’all wanna do.
XXXTentacion: I’ll let you know. I’m going to go away. If you like me [unintelligible]. I’ll depart within the morning. But for those who love me, you make certain she’s straight bruh. Because as fucked up as—
Woman 1: She can keep right here!
XXXTentacion: As a lot as I’ve instructed you. You know what’s humorous as fuck, I nonetheless love this bitch bruh. [laughs] It’s loopy as fuck. You’re gonna discover somebody. Just such as you love your mother, you are feeling me? Just as a lot as you like your mother, you’re gonna discover somebody that make you are feeling equal. And [unintelligible] similar to you. And then you’ll really feel how I really feel. And I’m telling you. I’m telling you to your face—you’re not gonna bounce off a cliff, I’m simply loopy for that shit—however my nigga, you’re gonna undergo the identical shit. Somebody gonna damage you this fashion, and also you’re not gonna know take care of it. You’re not gonna know take care of it. ’Cause you’re not going to stroll away, ’trigger that’s your bitch. You’re not going to stroll away. You’re not going to persistently hit them, as a result of that shit, it fucked them up, you are feeling me?
Woman 1: [unintelligible] For me, it by no means will get to that fuckin’ level.
Man: All proper. [unintelligible crosstalk]
Woman 1: I don’t take it [unintelligible crosstalk]
Man: Yeah bro. I haven’t been by means of that bro. But did you hear what she mentioned? I didn’t let—
XXXTentacion: It did not get to that time.
Man: Exactly. Nah, look. If I see any individual’s who’s on some shit such as you, I’m with them, after which like they’re only for all people. Then that simply reveals me, like, bro, I can not get too deep or, like, loopy with this particular person, you are feeling me? Because then, off rip, like, I’ma should be like at all times there, like, rattling, she’s for everyone, you are feeling me? And then when my again is turned, in fact all people’s gonna be for everyone so on the finish of the day, you’ll be able to’t cease that.
XXXTentacion: Who’s [unintelligible] all people? [laughs]
Woman 1: [unintelligible] It’s completely different on either side.
Man: But pay attention although. At the top of the day. [unintelligible] They do have individuals who understand how different individuals transfer and nonetheless attempt to work it out, you are feeling me? At the top of the day you wouldn’t have to kill your self. [unintelligible] Love counselor or some shit. You really feel me? And y’all placed on all of your variations. [unintelligible] Have like knowledgeable. [unintelligible crosstalk]
XXXTentacion: She simply want to inform me the reality.
Woman 1: That’s one of the crucial annoying issues, I can relate to that as a result of that simply occurred to me and [redacted].
XXXTentacion: Nigga wasn’t telling the reality.
Woman 1: He held it, he held onto it. [unintelligible crosstalk] It wasn’t even the reality. It wasn’t even the reality. I don’t know what occurred, however he heard from any individual that I cheated on him. During that, I wasn’t even with him. [unintelligible; somebody knocks on door] I used to be not with him. I don’t should fuckin’ lie. [unintelligible]
XXXTentacion: That was the one purpose why I gave her a cross on her complete state of affairs together with her ex. [redacted] And I imagine her. But she most likely lie about that too.
Woman 1: That’s what I’m saying [unintelligible crosstalk]. It’s annoying as fuck…
XXXTentacion: Bruh, I’ma get myself—I’ma get arrested both means. Look, [redacted].
Woman 1: I bought over it. You can do the identical however [unintelligible crosstalk] this shit?
Man: You can recover from issues.
XXXTentacion: I’ma get arrested. [redacted] look, I’ma get arrested both means. Would you fairly me get arrested completely satisfied, or depressing. ’Cause I’ll go in that shit and I’ll kill myself. And you recognize I’m able to it. [laughs] I’ll go in that shit and I’ll kill myself. So would you fairly me be both completely satisfied, or depressing.
Man: Why you’re so obsessive about desirous to killing your self?
XXXTentacion: I’m not obsessive about desirous to kill myself.
Man: Nah however you retain on screaming such as you need to kill your self.
XXXTentacion: Yeah, ’trigger I’ve reached some extent my life bruh the place there’s a variety of obstacles which can be psychological. You don’t know the ache bruh. You simply don’t know.
Man: Understand, however hearken to me now. [unintelligible] kill your self bruh. That shit is like [unintelligible crosstalk]. If you are feeling that means it is advisable to go a pastor and so they’ll baptize you.
Woman 1: Exactly!
XXXTentacion: We’re completely different individuals.
Unidentified Woman: If you need higher for your self, if you need the cycle to cease it’s important to go for one thing that may cease it. [unintelligible crosstalk] I’m not saying you’re gonna discover that by means of a God, you might discover that by means of any supply …
XXXTentacion: What no person’s understanding, I put my supply of happiness in one other particular person, which was a mistake initially, proper? But she fell by means of each time till now. Until I began fucking her up bruh. But I began fucking her up as a result of she made one mistake. And from there, the entire cycle went down. Now she’s scared. That woman is scared for her life. Which I perceive. ’Cause [redacted], you seen me. You know what I do to individuals. [redacted] know, all of them boys knew. It’s on fucking New Times. I’m on New Times for stabbing, how many individuals they put within the information, they mentioned three, it was eight. In Deerfield. She know that. She’s seen this shit. She’s seen after I got here again from stabbing [redacted] in Orlando. She seen after I got here again. Had a model new laptop computer. No tears on my face, no regret. I simply knew I used to be going to jail. She know. So she’s scared. She thinks I’m going to kill her. She doesn’t understand, as soon as I hear the reality, bruh, I could make an actual resolution bruh. And I’m saying that to you, I’m saying that out loud. The sooner, I imply it bruh, one thing optimistic may come out of that. And I’m not forcing you to say one thing that—
Woman 1: And that, that’s mild proper there. Something optimistic can come out of that. I don’t, I don’t, I don’t—please don’t get me mistaken, I checked out you simply now, and I seen one thing completely different. And I’m not saying that in a nasty means. It’s a great way. I simply seen concern in your eyes. That’s what I seen. But I really feel one thing completely different. If there’s one thing that you simply’re not saying—bro.
XXXTentacion: Just get this shit over with, bruh.
Woman 1: You really feel me?
XXXTentacion: Look. [unintelligible crosstalk]
Woman 1: Because I can’t—that’s it.
Unidentified Woman: [unintelligible] the reality. [unintelligible]
Woman 1: Well, see. That’s it. I don’t know. This is the factor. Either you imagine that. And you allow it alone.
XXXTentacion: It’s humorous how bits and items come out, and each time one thing related come out, you bought some new data. [unintelligible crosstalk]
Woman 1: What else can occur? You really feel me?
XXXTentacion: All I can do at this level bruh. Nah. I bought one thing that I’m going to say to her that’s going to make her assume. I’m not going to place my fingers on her, as I mentioned, I respect y’all home. I simply did one thing that was utterly loopy as fuck. That is it for the night time. Or, in any respect. I’m drained bruh. This shit pointless bruh.
Woman 1: Yes.
XXXTentacion: Nah, I imply every part bruh, I imply every part is pointless bruh. This shit all pointless.
Woman 1: It—it might appear pointless—
XXXTentacion: Nah, I’m not speaking about life and shit, interval. I’m simply saying something that has concerned itself with me has been pointless. Therefore I’ma simply return bruh. I’ma return within the morning bruh. I’ma pipe this shit up bruh. Take care of her please bruh. I’ma depart y’all with a bit of 500 bruh. I’ma get cash [unintelligible] and I’ma give it to her bruh. Just make certain she straight bruh. Pipe that shit up bruh. Fuck it.
I do know you don’t need me to have personal time bruh, however simply let me determine my shit out in order that means after I go within the morning bruh I’m straight bruh. I’ma get this shit over with. I simply want y’all to belief me. I don’t bought nothing else to lose at this level, ’trigger she executed instructed me another shit bruh that she didn’t inform me earlier than so I do know she’s mendacity. So all I can get now could be the reality. I already heard sufficient. I’m already gonna inform her what I do know.
Woman 1: But such as you simply mentioned at this level [unintelligible] provide you with personal time.
XXXTentacion: I’ll go outdoors bruh. No, outdoors the entrance bruh. I would like to speak to that woman bruh. [unintelligible crosstalk] Let’s simply work it out to the place I can depart bruh.
Woman 1: I don’t need you to—
XXXTentacion: You tryna have me sit right here.
Woman 1: I don’t need you to have to remain in an area or space, however [unintelligible crosstalk]
XXXTentacion: That’s what I’m saying!
Woman 1: Have her depart. If that’s the state of affairs, have her go keep [redacted].
XXXTentacion: No she don’t need to go to the Airbnb. [unintelligible crosstalk] [louder, insistent] Bruh. I’m telling you bruh. I deal with every part bruh. When something goes down and anyone leaves, it comes by means of me. Everything.
Woman 1: So what the fuck was [unintelligible] earlier than you?
XXXTentacion: Orlando. Orlando after which distant reveals that I might get and folks that I might meet. They would begin fuckin’ with it. How do you assume all people bought a profession? I did all that shit bruh and niggas nonetheless fucking me over bruh. So, let me speak to her and I’m straight. That’s it. [unintelligible]
Woman 1: I do know however, bro, like, I’m not, I can’t do this.
XXXTentacion: Then I’ll sit proper right here. Or simply let me depart. [unintelligible] Tonight, bruh, I’m executed with this shit bruh. I imply it bruh. I’m executed bruh. I’m executed with this shit.
Man: [unintelligible crosstalk] You have a buddy right here that’s looking for you. She looking for you ’trigger on the finish of the day she’s actual proper now bro, so that you don’t should be inside jail proper now.
Woman 1: That will not be the fucking spot to be in. [unintelligible crosstalk]
Man: At the top of the day you say no person care about you.
XXXTentacion: She care. Let me clarify one thing to y’all. You wanna know why I couldn’t keep at [redacted], [redacted]? [unintelligible crosstalk]
Woman 1: I already know.
XXXTentacion: Nobody like her. [unintelligible crosstalk]
Man: Bro, you’ve got a life and a profession forward of you.
XXXTentacion: I don’t care about that. [laughs]
Man: Listen to me bro. You have to care about that trigger on the finish of the day that woman life and yours [unintelligible crosstalk]. You have to like and care your self earlier than the rest. No disrespect homegirl, you are feeling me, on the finish of the day you’ll be able to’t need to kill your self over one thing like that bro. [unintelligible crosstalk] If that’s what’s making you are feeling like your world will not be complete, and also you simply need to eliminate life and like, I wanna go to jail and simply handle her and on the finish of the day, it’s simply gonna be the identical shit [unintelligible]. That shit don’t make no sense bruh. You’re younger, my man. [unintelligible] I’m 26 bro. I’m right here to let you know that that shit don’t make no sense.
XXXTentacion: I hear you.
Man: How previous are you?
XXXTentacion: I’m 18.
Man: You’re 18 fucking years previous my man. You bought mad time forward of you.
XXXTentacion: I find it irresistible when individuals inform me that. You ever see any individual get their tongue lower out?
Woman 1: Bro!
XXXTentacion: Let me ask you one thing, how previous are you?
Unidentified Woman: 19.
XXXTentacion: How previous are you?
Woman 1: 21.
XXXTentacion: You’re 26? You ever seen any individual get their tongue lower out? [unintelligible crosstalk] You ever seen any individual get their tongue lower out? [unintelligible crosstalk]
Man: This is loopy. I really feel like that is “Maury.” [laughter]
XXXTentacion: You ever seen any individual get their tongue lower out?
Man: Nah.
XXXTentacion: You ever seen any individual get raped?
Man: Nah.
XXXTentacion: That’s a variety of shit. Being 18 don’t bought nothing to do with it brah. You ever should reside with the pleasure of your mom being a stripper if you was youthful? You ever seen any individual attempt to kill your mother in entrance of you?
Man: You can’t make that like half of your life—
XXXTentacion: You gotta undergo it first. You gotta undergo it first.
Man: —like fuck up your complete strategy of pondering—
XXXTentacion: I’m telling you, you gotta undergo it.
Man: Nah.
XXXTentacion: I really feel what you’re saying although, don’t get me mistaken, however it’s important to undergo it. You may go get raped and I may let you know suck it up. But each night time you fall asleep and also you keep in mind what you seen and also you keep in mind the way it felt and also you keep in mind that horrible feeling in your soul. Nobody can consolation you. It’s one thing I gotta take care of.
Man: I do know, I hear you bro. But that’s why they’ve counseling. You really feel me? And individuals who actually look after themselves and their very own life, they go there—
XXXTentacion: I don’t care about my life.
Man: Bro it’s important to care about your life.
XXXTentacion: I don’t should.
Man: You have to care about your life. I care about my life. To hear any individual else not care about their life, that make me really feel some kind of means bro.
Woman 1: First of all, it’s not even that deep, you’re speculated to [unintelligible] hear your coronary heart beat.
XXXTentacion: What do you consider that? [slapping sound] Fuck that bro.
Woman 1: You gotta really feel that bro.
Unidentified Woman: There’s many circumstances that might [unintelligible]
XXXTentacion: Y’all give it some thought means too—it’s straight bruh. I’ma simply be out within the morning [unintelligible]
Man: At the top of the day I hear every part you’re saying [unintelligible]
XXXTentacion: [seemingly on the cellphone] Once you get to the parking storage, name me. Which ground are we on? [unintelligible] We’ll come down. Yeah. All proper I’m about to name you proper again.
Man: [unintelligible] At the top of the day, for those who see in your life that folks’s fucking you over, you’re supposed to remove your self from all that fuckery and all that circle of fucking you over and put your self in one thing—
XXXTentacion: She’s scared. [unintelligible crosstalk] Scared and silly just about. [unintelligible crosstalk; door closes]
If you or somebody you recognize has been affected by home violence or suicide and want to speak, we advocate these assets:
The National Domestic Violence Hotline
https://thehotline.org
1-800-799-SAFE (7233)
National Suicide Prevention Lifeline
http://www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org
1-800-273-TALK (8255)
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